- You -
After the song „You“ by Evanescence
“The words have been drained from this pencil
Sweet words that I want to give you
And I can’t sleep –
I need to tell you good night…”
Would you know, that I sat every evening at my desk and write side-wise for you, what would you say? I know, there are no words for you, but I try it again and again, in hope, to find some day the suitable words. I’m waiting for your call, the telephone lies right beside me, because before you call I won’t go to bed. I could be angry hours before, but I sit here and wait… I can’t sleep without to hear that you’re okay and tell you good night. It has become a ritual to me. I could still be so angry on you… If you don’t call, I don’t sleep.
“When we're together I feel perfect
When I'm pulled away from you I fall apart
All that you say is sacred to me
Your eyes are so blue, I can't look away as we lay in the stillness
You whisper to me, Amy, marry me, promise you'll stay with me
Oh you don't have to ask me, you know you're all that I live for
You know I'd die just to hold you, stay with you
Somehow I'll show you that you are my night sky
I've always been right behind you
Now I'll always be right beside you…”
There are about seven hundred kilometres between us, about eight hours if I get by train. I don’t see you often, maybe two or three times in a year – and if we see us, then not longer then two weeks. But if you’re here, right beside me, I feel perfect. I wish, that these moments will never end, but the time won’t stop for us. The day, when you had to leave comes after the wonderful times I’ve spent with you… And it’s like I’m falling. Long times I had to wait for you…
At night we sat together in the moonlight. It’s the only time where we can be for ourselves, without the hectic of the daily life. Everything you say is sacred to me, every word a gift. You’re my life, my heart, my breath and my soul, you could ask me everything you want – I’m here. You’re all that I’m living for, I would die for you if it saves you. My only wish is, that you stay here with me. I want to show you, what you are for me – but you look away…
The first days we were friends, I’ve been right behind you, If you have looked away, I have observed you all the time. I remember your deep brown eyes, your smile and each of your movements… Then that night we kissed under the clear sky…
Now I’ll always be right beside you.
So many nights I've cried myself to sleep
Now that you love me I love myself
I never thought I would say that
I never thought there'd be you
Would you know how many nights I cried myself to sleep, what would you do? Wipe away my tears and say, that you’re here? Since you’re with me I’m a new person, full of hope, strength and life joy; I love to laugh, think about crazy things… I never thought that it become like this…
But I never thought there’d be you.
And now I’m waiting for your call, to hear you’re voice – and you’ll never know what I write down for you. And If you read this… what would you say?
I love you?
~ Für Alexander; Ursprünglich für das Fly For Fame Forum, "Writer's Corner - Innocentias Thoughts" (daher auch in Englisch) fomuliert, in der Hoffnung, dass er es findet und liest ~